One of the goldfish I bought after.. the event, was 50% black, all along its back, its top fin, its tail. Now, presumably because it’s got bigger/older, in the space of a couple of weeks, it has completely lost all trace of black, and is now completely ‘gold’. First I noticed the fin wasn’t black any more, then the black on its body reduced until there were only a couple of patches, then finally even the black patch that was left on its head has gone.
So it’s become a metaphorical fish. Because it’s like the black is the stain of grief. And after a certain amount of time, the stain of grief has gradually lifted.
The only trouble is, I think the goldfish is ahead of me, because my stain of grief hasn’t lifted yet.