Dear John

Well, I keep waking up every morning.

What can I do?  I can’t help it.

I know I could choose not to be alive.  But you wouldn’t want that, would you?

It’s not like either of us believed we would ever be together again.

I keep thinking – how would you have felt, what would you be doing today, if it was me who had died?

At least maybe, by me experiencing this pain and grief, I have saved you from it.

But of course it would have been best if it were neither of us!