I’ve got two selected teddy bears in my bedroom. One is from the Splendour of the Seas cruise we went on (he has a t-shirt with the name of the ship on it), and his name is Splendid. He represents the past.
The other is from the Isle of Wight last year. His t-shirt says The Needles so (needless to say) I call him Needless. Since he dates from after my life-changing event, he represents the future.
I sometimes pick one or other of them up, depending on my mood. Sometimes I cradle Needless and say to him something like, ‘well it’s just me and you now, you’ve got to help me face my new future on my own’. But sometimes I grab Splendid and say, ‘don’t worry, I haven’t forgotten you, you (ie the past) are always going to be precious to me, and will stay with me always’.
That’s the sad story of me and my two teddy bears.